I wanted a cupcake so I made them

I use to watch Cupcake Wars A LOT!  I mean serious that was all I ever watched.  I never went out to eat a bunch of them either.  So why did I really want cupcakes today?  Did I want to feel like I fit in?  Fit in what?!  I didn't recently go to a party where I couldn't have anything.  I bake gluten free things at work and yet I don't eat them.  I've been thinking about a gluten free cupcake for a month at least.

I wanted the right one - I kept looking at Yummy Cupcakes which is just 3 miles down the road to see what the daily flavor was.

SERIOUSLY?!?!

Tonight, D wanted a cupcake and I wanted to bake cupcakes and make frosting.  I had Pamela's Gluten Free Vanilla Cake Mix in the cupboard and I went on Pinterest for a chocolate buttercream frosting.

Not mine, but looked identical.

So, now I have had a cupcake and frosting with the things I shouldn't have had because I gave into a craving.  How do I feel?

Honestly?

I feel slight guilt -  I wasn't even hungry but it sounded good.  I didn't eat much today but I have been trying to just eat when I am hungry.  Also, I have a candida problem and sugar is the last thing I need.

I'm not stressing about it!!  That's the last thing I need.  I ate it and despite there being more of them in the refrigerator, I don't want another.  I would be more inclined to eat all the frosting, but it has far too much sugar and dairy.  I actually plan to write on the container to not touch it - LMAO!  I don't really need to do that.  I can leave it but it certainly will be funny!

My next one will be in about a month for my birthday! Bawahahaha!  I will make it a good one and only have one.  No leftovers!  I will have to be very specific with my cupcake request!

So there it is.  Was this a confession? I guess it could have been.  My food is not bad at all.  I eat pretty clean and quite boring at times.  I'm changing that though.  I'm cooking more and I certainly don't need the treats.  This could have been a build up of stress finally coming out.  Either way, I feel kinda bloated and disgusting.  

Moving on to clean eating!  Maybe a little fasting in the morning.  I can't see how I will be hungry when I wake in the morning.