I ate one every couple days, just so my stomach could "handle" processing meat again. I had a funny ritual when I ate it too. I would pull the crusts off and eat them last. They were chewy and slightly soggy from the mayo, so tasty! Weird, yeah, but I would never call myself normal! It didn't take long at all for my stomach to get use to eating meat. Though, when we would go to his parents house for dinner they still thought I was a vegetarian and wouldn't have enough meat to go around. I adapted and they slowly remembered I ate meat again.
I weighed more back then (30 lbs.) and was getting more into running. It was perfect since D was a cyclist. He would go out to ride and I would go for my run. I remember running back then use to take me forever! Now it's nothing for me to go out and run a "quick" 8 miles! Haha!!
D didn't have the best eating habits. We would go out and eat pretty healthy, but his idea of meals were cereal in the am, toast with nutella for lunch and a microwaved dinner with spinach in the evening. So, I began to cook and spoil him rotten! What girl hasn't done that?!?
We dabbled in gluten free several times, but the products then tasted awful! They sure have come a long way in not only taste but texture too. I can't even begin to talk about all the products there are now. Everyone seems gluten free now, it's almost comical!
So a side note about that. I work in a upscale market as a bakery manager (funny right!). The guests that come in will ask about a gluten free muffin and I will explain cross contamination to them. They say, "Oh" and proceed to get a regular gluten muffin. WHAT?!?! Didn't you just ask me for gluten free!! Oh boy!
I played around with food choices for a while and ended up getting an office job and teaching yoga, bootcamp and pilates. All this while training every morning for another race. I restricted my calories so much I was dizzy most of the time and I was surprised that I could even function. I tried to get the most bang for the fewest calories possible. By the time I did my workout in the morning, ate breakfast went to work and ate lunch I had maybe 300 total calories. Then after work I would teach for 2 hours and eat dinner when I got home. So, I probably was taking in 800 calories, give or take, while doing all of this. Did I have an eating disorder? Yeah, I certainly did! Though I never said it out loud! (Maybe I just did!) Now I eat 2000 to 3000 per day, lift heavy weights a couple times a week and weigh 110 lbs. I still run, but not nearly where I use to. I stopped over training and all my "freak outs"!
I wanted to feel heathy again. I was stressed at work and having side effects from the food choices I was making, not to mention chowing down a bunch of tums on a daily basis! Something had to change! I was working with a nutritionist and it was helping. I kept a food log and she would review and make suggestions and encourage me. It was still hard to get my weight up because my exercise intensity never changed. It was December 2012 when I stumbled upon Practical Paleo on the Purely Twins website (December 27, 2012). This is right around 2 years from trying to gluten free and spiraling into a eating disorder that I was trying to bounce back from.
I bought the book and was talking to the nutritionist at my gym about paleo. It was hard to wrap my head around the fact that I just didn't need to count calories. There just wasn't any counting at all. WHAT?!?! I couldn't deal, but I wanted to feel better! So I jumped in!
That brings us to the beginning! Until next post..... your moment of Zen!
Kaat Van Nostrand
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